I wouldn't know what to say though. It so much easier to express yourself when you're upset or angry, even though I've had to struggle to come this far. It may be good to open up but I feel so vulnerable.
Back to the point though, when you're angry you can scream anything and it doesn't even have to be comprehensible. When you're upset you can cry and cry until you feel like you've reached the point of just vomiting up tears. But when you're happy... you smile and what? That's it?
It's so hard to say things without sounding like weirdo sometimes.
Things have to be left unspoken.
I can't say that when you see someone smile at something you've said it triggers an automatic smile from yourself, a sense of acceptance, of being able to make someone happy, of being able to cheer someone up or have them on the same wavelength as you.
I can't say that hugging someone tightly can make you feel safe and looked after and close to someone.
I can't say that when I kiss him I feel lightheaded and happy and that I can just forget things that were upsetting me or making me angry beforehand.
Because those things are always left unsaid.
Being happy is tricky.
So all I can say is that I'm content. I can't even say I'm happy because people as why and I don't know what to say...
He makes me happy.
:)
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