With smaller groups it's fine but as soon as there's more than like three other girls, I'm not good enough for them. Someone else is more interesting. We'll make an effort for her but fuck Becky, it's not like she matters or anything.
I hate losing touch of people but really we were never more than acquaintances. I can't kid myself.
I'm left to sit silently watching as they mess around and try and make other girls laugh. I'll try and strike up conversation and they'll give me one word replies then fuck off to someone else.
They aren't even worth it.
Why do I even care?
Finished all my science modules. Should be happy about that but really they never bothered me that much. It's Maths I'm shitting myself about.
I can't do it. I just can't. I'm so goddamn awful at Maths.
If I get a B for it I am so completely fucked. I can't even retake next year 'cause if I did I'd have to take it alongside Additional Maths which would just be ridiculous. I will be so so so so so happy if I get an A. I mean of course I'd love to get an A* but there is no way possible. I just know it.
So now I have to spend my half term freaking out over that, doing revision for at least two hours everyday and still trying to excite friends and him, even though today managed to prove just how dull I am.
I am looking forward to tomorrow though. Even though there is a rather large chance of it being a massive fail.
Oh, and my mum bought me Krispy Kremes on her way home from work. So that's good too I suppose.
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