if you want me gone there are kinder ways to say so long than spitting in my face

Okay so you made it pretty obvious you were talking about me.

I don't like my cynicism anymore than you do but that is why I write a blog, so that I don't have to waste up time with people I love moaning (even if I do still do it a tiny bit).

You don't know what's happening around me right now, I can't bring myself to talk about it on here because I always avoid stuff like this. It's not even to do with me so why should I lament on and on about it making others upset?

Let me have my outlet for fucks sake. Do you want me to keep stuff in like I used to? Do you remember what that did to me- what you did to me?

And anyway, what fucking right do you have to criticise me? Do you remember what you used to be like?

You really pissed me off, I was happy before I read all that shit you've been spouting about happiness and having a balance of good and bad. A balance? You think you have a fucking balance? You used to have panic attacks at the thought of hurting me. Calm the fuck down is pretty accurate in that case. Other times I saw you, you were overly relaxed on everything from drugs to schoolwork. You took "being balanced" to ridiculous lengths.

Fuck off why don't you.